she's screaming
make her stop!
so much hatred
so much pain
why is she doing this?
she's cutting me down
tearing apart my soul
killing me from the inside
isn't it obvious?
no one sees
no one cares
no one hears
eyes like snakes, teeth like fangs, bones, bones, bones
she hurts me each day
her demonic voice is taking over
"you dumb bitch!
cant you do anything right
you disgust me"
STOP IT! STOP IT!!
"look at that fat
you're hideous!
no one will ever want you"
please just leave me alone!
"YOU'RE NOTHING WITHOUT ME!
I GET YOU LOVE!
I GET YOU ATTENTION!
I MAKE YOU BEAUTIFUL!"
that's not true!
"do you really think that
years of darkness
months of pain
destroying the flesh that contains me
nights of sadness
tears like rain
annoying that i can't be happy
i poke and prod
binge and purge
lying to people by starving
i cut and scratch
bleed and scar
releasing the monster that's hiding
help me through this
grab my hand
take away the thoughts that consume me
love me truly
take a stand
fight against the beast thats ruling
accept my soul
bring me in
from the storm which forms my feelings
whisper the truth
give me hope
tell me of the dream that is beauty
what kind of girl would i be
if i didn't have insecurities?
an extra ounce on my cheek
feeling ugly and weak.
my voice cracks on stage
I am stuck in this cage
with anger, frustration
where's my salvation?
there's no denying
that inside i'm dying
constantly lying.
why do you hate me?
cant' you just take me
away from here?
from all my fears
So let me fly
I will no longer cry
about my weight
people filled with hate
my horrible voice
this is my choice.
take my blades
erase my scars.
stuck behind bars
with my insanity
ah the good ol' days... no worries, no cares, just me and you sitting in a smoke filled room stoned out of our freakin' minds. Sitting on a giant fluffy couch watching the world melt away. why must we wake up from this flawless dream? Enter the harsh reality that is the planet earth.
I remember being the sweet little girl everyone took advantage of. the one who was a perfect student. smart, childish, naive, but then i had a reality check. I was never as good as my brothers and sisters they were all happy, healthy children. they were smart and talented. I was always a sickly little thing and getting ill all the time and used up almost all
when i hear you laugh...begins by locababy007, literature
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when i hear you laugh...begins
"How could this happen to me? i know i've created a lot of bad karma in my life but i didn't think it was this much." I paced back and fourth in the girls bathroom at school. It seemed as though i've spent my entire life in thouse safe, secure walls but one brick was moved and it all collapsed. I was stuck under the rubbel slowly suffocating, as i clawed myself out."how coutld this be? how could i be...pregnant? i don't even like penises. i'm super skittles all the way to the rainbow and back!" I felt so stupid! how could i have let this happen? what was i going to tell my family? what would my girlfriend think? all of "how coulds" and "wha
my heart's been broken to many times
I can't stop these tears coming from my eyes
my hearts been ripped to shreds
by a thousand stakes
I chose my heart over my head
I made some horrible mistakes
loving you was a bad choice
caring about your thought was even bigger
always wanting to hear your voice
was basically my hand on the trigger
why did I want you for me
when i knew it would never be
this may have lead to heartbreak
but loving you was never a mistake
pain
a release of emotion
all in one form
crimson
the beautiful color of my release
flowing gently
tears
forming a river down my cheeks
pouring uncontrollably
shaking
my entire body
out of control
death
captures me
and refuses to let go
we cant be together
all hope is lost
i will love her forever
i now know the cost
i am foolish to think she'd love me
or to hope we'd ever have more
we will never be
there's nothing else i wish for
she's the one i love now, and i'll love her next
my life is ruined because of my sex
me being me isn't enough
a girl who likes girls is pretty damn tough
i listened to your issues
and i always cared
but when i asked you for a tissue
you weren't there
i tore myself to shreds
hoping to find what i was looking for
all i wanted was a friend
that was it nothing more
you made me cry
and want to die
without you i'd still be alive
i always thought you were my best friend
but with you came this painful end
I love you with all my heart
as truly as ever possible
i don't even know where to start
what i now feel in unstoppable
your words brighten up my life
your face warms up my heart
my love isn't worth all the hype
I wish we weren't so far apart
she's screaming
make her stop!
so much hatred
so much pain
why is she doing this?
she's cutting me down
tearing apart my soul
killing me from the inside
isn't it obvious?
no one sees
no one cares
no one hears
eyes like snakes, teeth like fangs, bones, bones, bones
she hurts me each day
her demonic voice is taking over
"you dumb bitch!
cant you do anything right
you disgust me"
STOP IT! STOP IT!!
"look at that fat
you're hideous!
no one will ever want you"
please just leave me alone!
"YOU'RE NOTHING WITHOUT ME!
I GET YOU LOVE!
I GET YOU ATTENTION!
I MAKE YOU BEAUTIFUL!"
that's not true!
"do you really think that
years of darkness
months of pain
destroying the flesh that contains me
nights of sadness
tears like rain
annoying that i can't be happy
i poke and prod
binge and purge
lying to people by starving
i cut and scratch
bleed and scar
releasing the monster that's hiding
help me through this
grab my hand
take away the thoughts that consume me
love me truly
take a stand
fight against the beast thats ruling
accept my soul
bring me in
from the storm which forms my feelings
whisper the truth
give me hope
tell me of the dream that is beauty
Destiny is a fourteen year old girl who cuts herself. one day she gets too upset and slits her wrists.Next thing she knows she's in the hospital surrounded by her family and a bandage is wrapped around her wrists and her father is furious! Now she is on her way to the mental hospital. Now she has to find some friends to get her through this sticky situation.But will she triumph through all her issues such as her father appearing and abusing her when everybody's back is turned or how about her boyfriend sending her a letter that he has been seeing someone else while she is getting help. But no matter what happens she has to find a way to tra
The awful memories flooded her mind until she couldn't take it anymore.As tears ran down her face she swiftly grabbed a thumbtack and scraped it swiftly acrossed her arm so it would and sure enough,it did.She stared at the blood as it trickled down her arm.Destiny was so angry.
light in dark page 6... by locababy007, literature
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light in dark page 6...
"I deserve to die!"She thought. Destiny reached into her purse and reached for a small blade. She took it out and put it against her wrist and in one slow movement she sliced her arm and watched as the blood poured out like a fountain. Her body became unbearebly hot and the pain was overwhelming. She stumbled from the bathroom stall to the sink and tried to wash off the blood but it just continued to pour out.
She ran into her room and slammed the door behind her. Kristy had been running so fast she was completely out of breath. But she had to get away and the only place she would be safe is her room which was two miles away from where she was.The actual truth was that no matter where she was she would never truly be safe. So what is this mysterious danger? Well if you go back to the first day it started.
It was six o'clock monday morning and Kristy had to be ready for school in a hour. She lazily sat up and looked at her alarm clock and plopped her head down on her pillow. Soon enough she was asleep again. "Kristy! Your'e gonna be late for s
they knew it would happen by locababy007, literature
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they knew it would happen
They new it would get worse, they all told me but I didn't listen. I feel so stupid. Why do I feel the need to cut? It's so hard to stop and you completely lose control. At first it was scratching at myself. Then it was staples,thumbtacks, and paper clips. But then it escalated to scissors, but not just any scissors but those super sharp hair cutting scissors that cut through everything. It was like a knife as it crossed my skin. Then it wouldn't stop bleeding. After waiting a half-hour I decided I needed help. It stopped bleeding but I still felt pain because everyone was right. They told me that if I didn't stop it would get worse but I sa
Vivian laid in bed stairing at the ceiling,it had been a year since she movedbut the events that occured in Maryland still haunted her mind. She still thought the night that she saved Aiden from Axel. Vivian chuckled,"I can't believe I had feelings for that jerk!" Then she decided to take a nap before shewent out for her evening run with Gabriel. As for the rest of the pack, the five were still causing mischief but nothing to harmful. All they did was cause scenes during the day and scared the crap out of humans at night when they were in their true form. Wolves were normal in Vermont so no one reported their run ins with them.Esme` no lon
blood and chocolate 2 chapter by locababy007, literature
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blood and chocolate 2 chapter
At precisely eight o'clock in the morning Astrid and Esme`began to argue over who was going to bail Rafe out of jail, for some stupid reason he attacked a police officer after he was done changing. "There's no way i'm going to get him! I was out later than you last night and i deserve some rest." Esme` shouted. " You wanna fight you old hag?!" Astrid screeched. " You know i could beat the crap out of you any day but i promised my daughter i would stop fighting." Esme` said." You've become a wimp ever since Vivian took over the pack and you know it!" Astrids voice couldn't be any louder. The two got off subject and agued for hours lik five-yea
"Come find me"
Whispers softly. Wings flutter. Candle flickers.
"Come find me"
Hearts racing. Hair flowing. Wind blowing.
"Come find me"
Cease.
Silence.
Suffocation.
The light flickered on.
"Britta go to bed. Now."
"Yes mom." She put the candle away and closed the window. Another failed attempt at communicating through spirit. Dreams. She would of sensed him if he had heard.
She sighed. Another day tomorrow. Another agonizing day. Better get to sleep so it can come quietly without her fighting back.
***
He woke startled in his bed. What had just happened? He was dreaming about something odd...Bananas? Then she just popped in.
"B
wrote my first poem in like a yr.!!!! my muse has been gone for a while and now she's back. wait...do you think? could it be? please don't let it be her! but then again, she did just come back in my life. nah it cant be! cuz she was here last year. ok, much better just a little confuzzled. maybe..nah! (angel knows what im talking about)
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I was told that i was immoral by this ignorant bitch today. what really hurts is that we are alot alike and we could've been really good friends if she didn't know i was bi. whats immoral is having to soldiers go into a lesbian's house intending to rape her to knock the gay out of her. she wasn't home but her 5 year old son and babysitter were there. they tied them up and slashed her son acrossed his face with a knife. A 5 YEAR OLD BOY! HE WAS JUST A BABY!! breaking and entering,assault,rape! do you think THAT is morally right???
guess whos back and better than ever! so my computer is oficially fixed! im no longer miss doom n gloom i have transformed into a happier person which in turn gives me less to write about oh well. so as im eating unicorns and pooping out rainbows i will tell you i have opened up to some more literature which i a bit more positive than my old stuff and my wirting skills are slowly but sure getting better. i mean they cant get worse right? i started a new story and i hope you like it....by the way it is the end of the world! all of the magnificent wonderful things i once wished but never thought would happen are now occuring! visitors, A's in m
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